Cheating...or the bigger picture?

So...
There is all this talk about cheating going on and I have some perspective to add to it.

Attraction is, by definition, the gravitational pull of one object to another.
Attraction is, by definition, the electromagnetic force that pulls one mental disposition to a corresponding circumstance or event.

All in accordance with what we are...Human. So just like the proliferation of mankind...
Attraction will never stop.
Attraction will never end.

So now that we have established this, we should try to look at infidelities in this light.
The act of cheating means different things to the people in the relationship as opposed to the person outside of it.

I think cheating happens. Not to everyone, but it happens.

And as someone who, seems to always crush other peoples' partners, I always think about how easy/appealing it is sometimes to destroy the moral fabrics of love relationships.

On one hand, I get self conscious about the entire thing. Like what is it really saying about me, if knowingly get with someone else's partner? Do I have low self-esteem? Am I being scandalous? Am I just being indulgent and self-gratifying? How am I going to look if I don't care about this woman's feelings? And should she even want this dude if he would risk the relationship?

And then on the other hand, is attraction. Bump all that other stuff.
All the things you like and want and feel and desire is looking you in the face asking to be acknowledged, and the only thing standing in your way is this other person and a connection that exists with someone else, that has absolutely nothing to do with you. And you just want it. So to stop yourself is conceding. Its admitting defeat. Its being completely disrespectful to the fate of the cosmic operation. And love, actually, is one's motivation.

Is there not enough merit in one's motivation for love?
If there in lies a spiritual connection in the revelation of a union between people, would that not merit one's motivation for love?
Or would you rather just throw these notions under the bus?

Moreover is the truth of deeds, actions and their interpretations.
Its hard for me to look at every person I am attracted to and think that my heightened level of awareness for this person's energy is automatically meant to be interpreted as romantic. I mean, then I would be having romantic rendezvous's with damn near half of the world's population.

Lastly is a question of ownership and boundaries.
Does anyone really belong to anyone else?
Does commitment always have to constitute emotional/physical co-dependency on one other person?
Do relationships really suffer or thrive with the knowledge and freedom to be who you are with whoever you choose in respectful capacities to your love arrangements?

And then other times (which is most times), people are just horny or unhappy or uncommunicative.

For all the intents and purposes of writing this particular rant, I would have to say that cheating is not just about one or two things. Its about a myriad of possibilities with varying mental/emotional states of being. Its about change, love, indifference and frustrations. Its about getting down to the core values and convictions about love. And one should not venture there if you are not willing to do the spiritual work necessary to thrive knowing where you should be, with who you should be, not based on a ring or necklace or rent or your ego or an institutional piece of paper telling you that your feelings towards you partner will somehow automatically make you an adulterer for loving someone else outside of that...because you can and you will if your love is not motivated by something more pure and riskier than the spews and songs about love in our societies.

The journey is long and sometimes lonely. But then, where would we be if everything, everybody, everywhere, always stayed the same? But when you find it and know its there and its yours even though it has the freedom to be absent or nullified at any point...But its still there anyway...Like God...Like love, then this conversation is forgotten and we get back to making the world a better place for our children.

But somethings are just not meant to be.

But maybe I'm being too idealistic about our "selves" and our hormones. Maybe I should just go buy some shoes.

Kisses

Low Self-Esteem...Real Talks

I have low self-esteem.

Not every minute of everyday, but I see how it is affecting my morals and my so-called "honesty and sincerity" when dealing with other peoples feelings.

Sometimes I see how I lack the confidence to do exactly what I want and say exactly what I want. Good, bad or inconsequential.

At the root of my problem is the thought that I am unlovable. I have been constantly aggravated by the thought of being alone. And it means a lot more to me than other people because, I have always been alone.

Loneliness is not just about feeling a deep need to connect with others in solitary moments, its also about gaining something insightful and indicative in and of your affections of others.

So, I find myself over-compensating too often, the need to be complete. I find myself over-compensating so karma doesn't come back and bite me in the ass. I find myself over-compensating because I dance with Mr. Intentional too often and just when he brings me to the gates of hell, I retreat with remorse and conscience.

And then there is when the pendulum swings the other way, and I am so confident, so full of grace, so happy and content with who I am that all I do is look for the mirrors of goodness around me. That is truthfully where most of you all are.

Living in a love state of mind has a price...and its the unconditional road that we stand on when we don't know better, to do better. And so, since I know that I can dish my fair share of abuse when I am ready, I endear enough of my own...because there is some value in it.

And at other times, there is no value...you just have low self-esteem.

Everybody plays a fool...just not every day. You know what I mean?

"We keep on returning, because the lessons need learning."

kisses