Single Black Female a.k.a Mother Earth

Kanye says "...addicted to retail."
But I'm not addicted to retail,
I am just trying not to get stale,
seeing my friends pale
Not having the same issues.

But its abuse.

I don't want to complain that I'm not addicted to retail,
I just watch my sisters trying to keep our son's out of jail.
Seeing fire in their spirit
and want the burning to change.
and these mothers with bullet holed son's
and all she can do is wail and rage.

Have you ever heard that wailing?
Heard your ears and souls conforming?
Heard the people away sleeping and sailing.

While the youth are running from the gun shots flailing?

This is a disgrace.
"When a man loves a woman," said Percy
And opting to be better than my parents but not judging,
Because the Lord had mercy.
But its repetition is a disgrace and frustrating.

And my disenchantment feels abnormal.
When all the reaping of the sowing feels like I sowed hell.
All the reaping of the sowing says I planted evil.
And I don't really understand when my blessed heart has been so open
To give and give and love and love and lose so much that I figured the cosmos is joking.
It can't really be like this
Let me tell E.T to phone home
I feel ready for my place in sky if all I have here is the most trouble for stroking.

And should ego really play a part in losing so much
Well then its the kind of ego that makes me consistently be a fool.
And my beauty is completely distorted
Because I feel ugly inside
There must be a sess-pool
From where my heart used to be.

If I love you, humanity...and you treat me this way.